Well, I've now officially gotten further in this cycle than I did last time we tried IVF. Last time I was cancelled after 7 days of stims, with one huge dominant follicle and four smaller ones. This time, after 7 days of stims, I have one huge dominant follicle and four smaller ones. Sound familiar? However, this time we're going for two more days of stims before my next check. I guess it's safe to say that expectations for me have dropped.
I was pretty happy to hear this morning that I had two new follicles in the mix, bringing my grand total up to five. But the bad news is that there's a monster follicle on the left that's taken a substantial lead at 17mm, with all the rest lagging at 10 or 11mm. The nurse said that it's likely they'll just continue to stim me and possibly sacrifice the big one by allowing it to overmature so that they can get at the crop of little ones.
I have mixed feelings about this. Obviously, IVF is a numbers game and the more follicles at retrieval the higher our chances of success. But theoretically, Fatty McFatterson (as I'm now calling my 17mm follicle) is my best egg since it's growing the fastest. It kind of sucks to sacrifice it for the sake of the lesser mini-eggs.
Mmmm....Cadbury mini eggs....sorry, got distracted there for a bit.
They didn't even bother to give me my E2 level, which is probably good since I would've only researched and obsessed about it all day. As it is, I feel like I'm on pins and needles all the time. Every morning before my stim check I wake up with a huge ball of anxiety in my stomach, wondering if we'll be told we're cancelled again. Then I get to work and try in vain to distract myself before I get my afternoon bloodwork results and drug instructions. Then the whole cycle repeats itself. I feel like I'm just scraping through the checks by the skin of my teeth, and I wish just for once that I'd get some kind of results that I can feel confident in.
Now if you'll excuse me, I'm going to go drink some wine and give a rousing pep talk to my remaining follicles.